
Here's a tip for self-observation. For those of you who don’t know what I mean, it’s the ability to observe yourself, to see how you think, feel, and react. By seeing this, there is the opportunity to change inside - from undesirable states such as fear, to desirable ones such as peace. This changes the whole way we live our life.
Many people who try this have a lot of trouble in seeing and changing thoughts: as scientists estimate there are about 80,000 a day, this is to be expected. Not only that, but we have to think to live, and how do we sort out the harmful thoughts from the useful ones?
Well there are two main things to do: firstly learn to be aware of the present moment, of the outside world. This gets rid of a lot of the chain of thoughts - then observe. Thoughts that are generated by undesirable subconscious states have their root in emotions and feelings. These generate thoughts, then in turn the thoughts which later appear, themselves become triggers for these same emotions and feelings. So you think about what your neighbour said to you when he was angry and you get an emotion corresponding to that event, even though it’s just in your mind.
To get into this, look at the emotions and feelings; they usually work beneath the process of thinking and trigger off thoughts. If a thought itself is a trigger, then it’s after its ‘feed’, which is taken from the corresponding emotion. Look at the underlying emotions that usually pass unnoticed and change them. By doing so, you’ll get rid of the trigger for innumerable harmful thoughts.
Some who try this tip say that it’s more difficult to see underlying emotions than it is to see thoughts. Consider that instead of observing, you may just be thinking about the thought you just had, rather than observing an underlying emotion as it actually happens. This indicates an intellectual approach to self-observation, which in turn indicates a need to re-learn self-observation.
Belzebuub
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For a long time when
For a long time when self-observing I would mostly see thoughts coming up as that constant chain and assumed that my intellectual centre was my main problem - where the majority of my ego's would manifest throughout the day. Previously I would only see the connection between the emotional and intellectual centres as thoughts that give rise to emotions first and from there the two would "feed" one another back and forth. Now, and in recent times I have begun to see more and more how the vast majority of my thoughts are "born" out of an emotion lying very subtly beneath the surface in a particular moment and this has added a whole new light onto the self-observation for me which has really helped me to uncover things about myself that I may have already known on an intellectual level but now I see it for what it is devoid of any thoughts. I think my approach in the past was too intellectual as you have said here, where I would try to think about the emotion connected to thought instead of just observing it for what it was.
I agree. This is very
I agree. This is very powerful advice. Especially the awareness and self observation...which is so fundamental to this work. I've often fallen into this trap of over-intellectualizing all that takes place within me. "There is that thought of lust again. Here are my thoughts of anger." All the while I've been completely ignoring the subtle emotions that sit there beforehand. I will be revisiting self observation for a while now.