I was brought up as a Catholic; my mother was very devout and made sure I attended church regularly. Some weekdays before school, I would be an altar boy at mass, along with many of the other lads in my class. I took this task very seriously and was one of the main altar boys.

Running parallel with this however, was an interest in the occult. From about eight years of age I loved supernatural horror stories and movies, and would read something every night before sleeping. I would borrow books about the occult from the local library, and would occasionally play in the garden by drawing pentagrams and invoking spiritual beings, sometimes using the name Tetragrammaton. When I was twelve, my parents gave me a book Man's Search for Meaning, which they had bought at the Catholic Church’s own store. It explains how people had been looking for spirituality in different ways from the earliest times, and included many different religions.

I felt that I had to look further than what the church was giving me to find true spirituality, and I realized that I really wanted to find it.

The local library continued to be a useful source of information. When I was thirteen, I came across Madame Blavatsky’s Secret Doctrine, but I found it too unverifiable and incomprehensible. My favourite teachings at the time were from the four gospels. I wondered what Christianity would be like without any additions by anyone, so I wrote down just the words of Jesus in a note book. What emerged was something far deeper than was ever taught at church. It occurred to me that the real message of Jesus had been altered and that much of his message was personal and had a lot to do with inner change; it had many layers.

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Interest in Spirituality